In which I prove one more time that I am a strange one.

So I was in the mall today, thinking about mobility and identity and relationships, and questions of trust. As one does? (There were people I didn't know in the food court and they looked at me, because while in a mall I walk at a speed slightly above "speed walk" but and only just below "run." And this is always inspiring to think about relationships. Don't ask questions.)

Anyways, this brought two characters of mine to mind. They're from a story I mentioned a few times, Expendables (I've ranted about the writing of this just a FEW times), and when I ended off the story they had just gotten together into the beginnings of a romantical relationship.

Only it was just the VERY beginning, and one character has trust issues out the ying-yang and identity issues right now because she's a dancer and a fighter who's just put herself in a wheelchair, and the other character is someone who sleeps around who's just committed to a monogamous relationship and also had this promotion which means he's in a position of authority, and they both have a LOT of baggage. Anyhow, I was thinking about them, and how it would just be really fun to explore their relationship, and how they learn to work together and contrast and compliment each other. (I'm sure they'll stay together, I wrote them that way after all. :D)

And then I thought- oh wait, I've never had a relationship! I can't write one, I don't know how they work!

And then I thought- I should get in a relationship so I can write that story, cause it would be so excellent.

It took about five minutes before I realized that was not the usual way of deciding to commit to someone, and people usually have a counterpart in mind when they make this decision.

I still think it's a good idea though.