“Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit.”
— Ira Glass
So this is where I am in my writing, right now. Unfortunately. :P
I've gotten to the point now that I'm starting to be conscious of twists and motivations, and tropes I used before, and emotional reactions, and character voice, and it KILLS. It's not just that nothing I write is good, oh no. I've been spared that particular trial by a decade of oblivious reading and years of just-for-fun-never-read-it-twice writing. And in the interim there I feel like I've pretty well achieved some control over a small segment of story elements. I could write things in these bounds and- while not necessarily awesome- it would at least hang together.
BUT that's only a very small segment of story elements that I control. The hook that's caught me is suddenly being conscious of my comfort zone. So for the last month or so I've been blithely trying things outside of this safe selection of themes I keep writing about. And the stories have all BOMBED. (Let's be honest here.)
I don't really like writing things that bomb. It makes me feel pathetic. (Not an optimal state.) So in response to THAT, I was right on the verge of retreating back to my comfort-zone. Then I decided to think about that some more.
(The byline for my blog used to be "I spend too much time inside my own head." I think it's still maybe accurate, eh?)
But after deliberation, I decided that I want to expand my portfolio outside of where it is now. I want to be able to use all the cool things I see other people using in their stories. And I wish there was some magical way to just absorb the technique- but so far I haven't found anything easy. The only way is to write. And write enough that I've got these different ideas basically beaten into my muscle-memory, where I can pull them out without conscious "I think I should try a fantasy from second person present POV" deliberation.
All of which to say- the more I learn the more I learn that I have to learn.
Don't expect to see me published any time soon. :P
And in other news, the Royal Wedding just made me happy. ^_^ It's not often that I get to see an out-and-out fancy event where I can feel honestly happy for the couple, and not jealous or resentful. Celebrity weddings make me roll my eyes, but this one was just happy-making. :P
|Also, this may or may not be the best picture ever, but I'm leaning towards a "yes."|