On the bright side, I'm not hallucinating yet!

I am so tired I feel nauseous, in addition to the gravity surges and headache. Therefore, I am going to

FINISH THIS DAMNED SCENE,

and see if the pain helps the creative process. Crank the music, this could be interesting.

Edit: I just killed someone, and show no signs of stopping. So lame.....

Nothing much new to report, except I wrote a scene from the viewpoint of a highly, highly arrogant young man. I didn't really like being inside his mind. I had to do a fade-to-black at one point. Next up, we RUN FOR OUR LIVES WITH ALL THE HOUNDS OF HELL BEHIND US. Also known as, a normal day at the office. ;D

"If I have to listen to your voice while I die, there really is no mercy in the world."

I have now embraced the "don't tell your reader exactly what is going on," after far too many words of trying to detail everything. I think this is an improvement. It was also motivated by the fact that I have no idea how Sarti stole that speeder. She won't tell me. :D

And now Law is panic attacking, and everything is going to hell in a handbasket. Pretty much par for the course! ^_^

I painfully dragged a scene-ish-thing out of myself today, and it was painful. Then I looked at it, and decided that it would strain credibility TOO much, even for the very elastic bounds I've set up, for the people to get out of there alive, must less non-captured. So I had to delete most of it and re-write.

Which was painful, but feels so much better now that it's done! That's the first time I've done that, I think, so I'm newly impressed with how much like lancing a boil that is. Get all the nasty gone, and rewrite! ^_^

Yes I know I need help.

Write two sentences, pause for several minutes, write two sentences, pause for several minutes, write two sentences, pause for several minutes...

I'm trying to write a "scared" scene. By which I mean that one of my characters is scared, and in reading it you're scared too.

By golly that's hard! I'm sifting through the thesaurus so often I'm considering bookmarking it, trying to find just the right turn of phrase and twist of adjective. Of course, working so hard at it probably means that this will be the part that makes me bash my head against the floor when I go to edit it, but that doesn't mean I shouldn't try now! (Doesn't it?) I want it to be good, even while I'm despairing entirely. ^_^

Anyhow, back to my eight hundred words of pain and suffering. By which I mean MY pain and suffering, my character is only going through a little dread. Mwahahahah. Ahem.

I"m gonna give up on it soon.....

I think [caps lock] expresses my feelings right about now.

HATREDDDDD.....

SO MUCH HATRED FOR MY NOVEL.

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO LAME, AND WHY DO YOU HAVE TO TAKE SO LONG, AND WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SO UNPROFESSIONAL? WHY DO YOU GIVE ME HEADACHES, AND WHY DO MY CHARACTERS ALL MORPH MADLY, AND WHY DO YOU HAVE TO HAVE SUCH A CRAZY/STUPID PROSE STYLE WHICH I HATE, YOU EXILING PIECE OF DESHASTELANE METAL.

I WANT TO FINISH YOU SO I CAN TAKE YOU OUT BACK AND BURN YOU IN EFFIGY AND TRUTH.

DIE, DIE, DIE, DIE, DIE, DIE, DIE.

Ahem. I should sleep now. *waves*

• 15:31 making a travel spreadsheet. Fun.... #
• 16:43 RT @dean_stairs: I have been dragged kicking and screaming into the world of Facebook. "Friend" me please, it's lonely here all by myself! #
• 16:56 @dean_stairs It did! #
• 17:25 @Spartezda Indiscriminate soda? Or a particular kind? Pepsi, Root Beer, Pineapple Crush, etc? *peers* #
• 18:40 How to know when you have too many characters: You use 30,438 words to cover a half hour of plot. *headdesk repeatedly* Important half hour! #
• 18:44 @Merc_hyn_di At this point I could subtitle my novel "Nano Gone Wild," it's so far beyond what I was planning. :D But I'm SLOWLY snaring it. #
• 18:50 @Merc_hyn_di They have a habit of doing that, don't they? I'm currently beating Nano09 away with Nano08- which is entirely pro, I know. ^_^ #
• 20:38 I've been planning to buy a phone once my debt is no more. Or maybe I'll win an ~iphone~ (insert magical leitmotif) from #squarespace ! #
• 21:02 @Inksie Good luck with Jesscapades! Alliteration *must* be a good sign, right? #
• 23:05 While State Of Play continues to be awesome, it doesn't really lend its self to being sleepy. I'll write another scene then, shall I? Yep. #

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Sarti, like a butterfly, needs no reason. Especially when matchy beetle-coloured shuttles are involved.

This novel makes me feel so very non-professional.

Alugh! I keep writing myself/my characters into plot traps! I write these scenes which seem like such a good idea going in, and then I don't know how to get them out of said scenes!

• If you saw the police advancing on where you knew two of your friends were doing something illegal, would you look around for police advancing on yourself? Or would you go to see if you could help your friends? What would you even do to help?
• If you were trying to escape an enemy base, and you came across a five year old girl who belongs to the enemy, who works there, would you dispose of her? Take her along? As a hostage or an escapee? Would you just leave her there and hope she doesn't raise an alarm?
• If you were trying to break a small group out of a prison, and then you found that there was another group of helpless prisoners the group you're rescuing thinks are innocents, would you bring them along? Or leave them behind?

*headdesk*

I really should be in bed sleeping now. About that.

Appel and Petria decided to fight with each other today, just in case Danen and Haggerty weren't QUITE uncomfortable enough. Appel goes really expressionless when he's mad, and boy oh boy, was he mad. I was twitching just writing him. I only managed two pages, but I think they might be good pages?

*hopeful*

Oh, who am I kidding, I have edits for years to do. But at least I got people moving. :D Yay for movement! Tomorrow I think Sarti and Etna get their place in the spotlight. Maybe.

*amused by twitter*

• 10:12 @bahnree Watching ummm, Children of the Gods? :D You have to remember it's 90's, for one. And think of the quotes! The quotes! #
• 10:47 Your daily Star Wars fix. ^_^ twurl.nl/nskdrw #
• 10:50 Now to see if we have enough flour for bread-making. #
• 11:53 @dean_stairs The pictures are up in all their debatable glory. Sorry about the blurriness. #
• 13:07 @bahnree which is? #
• 14:47 I discovered Macro photography today. twurl.nl/2tkkpp Though that feels like it should be "micro" photography? The logic escapes me. #
• 16:04 This time next week, I'll be well on my way to the Mainland, little sister in tow! I love spontaneous travel. :D #
• 18:40 Two of my characters unexpectedly decide to have a fight in the middle of a firefight. What is wrong with me-and should I like it this much? #
• 18:47 -Never mind, must stop writing to watch Daft Hand with my three-year-old brother. :) :) #
• 19:38 Twitter does nothing if not point out my grammatical problems. Oh, person number tense and voice, how I love/loathe thee. #
• 19:52 Going out with @KaylaABall for the evening. Wow, it's like I have a social life or something! :D #

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"... then decided the better part of being able to move at any decent speed was being carried."

I just need to commemorate the epic fail that this day has been.

I have the entire day to write. I spend the entire day sitting in front of my computer, "writing." In 13 hours, I manage 1,260 words. *headdesk*

Let's not do that again.

*bounces*

"... a decided Negative."

I wrote 2,477 words today. Of that, 2,070 was written after 22:20. WHYY?????

Actually, I don't totally hate all of it either, which is new and exciting. :P Jennet was AWESOME. *hugs her* I knew you could do it, girly. And Neph. Wow. Neph was also SUCH a man. I need to rewrite that just to show how much of a man he was. Let's see. Howling was disturbing and I tried to kill him twice, though it didn't work. Oh, and Tenish. *sniffs* Tenish was just as leet as ever. Gosh, I need to get to something happy soon. Maybe I can marry off Terra and Pepper, really sickeningly sweetly?

"If you want too, I can save you..." *sings*

Despite all my griping, I did manage 7,100 of fairly important words in the past week. And I know what happens, for the rest of the story, I think. Mainly. Gosh, if I could just get it out of my head!

Just a scene a day. Must manage at least a scene a day.