Why I Write.

I'm going to be DARING and put the picture on the other side today. That is how you can tell that I am thinking CREATIVELY. Also my judicious use of CAPS LOCK.

I am such an artist.

Look, over there! I got you some daleks. In a fetching setting. There's even pipes, and warning signs, and MYSTERIOUS canisters.

I am so considerate.

*cough*

ANYWAYS. I was at work, thinking about writing, as one does. (What, you mean I was supposed to do what I was paid for? Surely you jest!) And I came to a REALIZATION about why I enjoy writing, and why this latest story has been so hard to get in the groove for. It's because I want to share my stories.

Before I started writing the stories down, I would just tell them, on long walks with my sister, (two or three hour walks.) I never actually finished any of those stories, a fact my sister holds against me to this day. And then I discovered my stories got better when I wrote them down- (for one thing they had endings,) and I decided that was the kind of story telling I wanted to do. I want to show people the crazy worlds in my head, and play with the what-ifs, and get them on the edge of their seats about what happens next!

Only thing is, I've gotten used to writing with alpha readers who send me back emails of LURVE, about how they like this character, (actually usually it's more like "I am in love and I just have to kidnap him and take him home. You don't mind right good!) and ooooh, that was a good line, and HAH, that was hilarious, and maaaybe you might want to work on that plot point, and Wait, it's over? I WANT MORE.

Those letters are very motivational to my writing. Only now my alpha readers are swamped with school, and not writing fangirly letters, and I'm questioning my place in this world. :P (Not a whole lot, and my severe leaning towards giving up writing is most likely fuelled by my current toothache, but there is QUESTIONING going on, okay? SOUL SEARCHING.) For example, if no one else reads my writing, do I like it enough, or think it's good enough, to write it anyways? I'll have to think about that one...

Which is to say I've written two paragraphs in the past two weeks. But tomorrow's a brand new day, wot? New things to work on, new thoughts to pursue! Huzzah!